3 Days and counting

I have 3 days til I fly back to Ohio and get to hug and kiss my son that I havent seen in over a month. I can not even begin to explain how much I have missed him and really cannot wait to see him. We either talk or text everyday. He lost, well actually pulled 2 teeth yesterday. He is so cute and I bet he has grown so much since I last saw him. I really dont know if I can handle being away from them every summer or holidays that they are with their dad. My daughter came with me to Florida and finally has made some friends but they are only here for the summer with their dad. School will be starting soon so that will help them meet kids their age. I do have a hard decision that needs to be made rather soon and that is if I am going to leave them in Ohio with their dad and give myself time to save money to get a place of our own since things are not working out living with the boyfriend. I just dont know that I would be happy without my kids. They are what keeps me sane and keeps me going from day to day.

Me and Florida

I recently moved to the Florida Keys and moved in with my boyfriend. It took 3 weeks to realize that I couldnt live with him. I have a job here and love it here but not the living arrangements. He is a little too high maintenance for me and I dont have the patience to deal with it. Him and I had a talk and agreed that living together was not good because we would just end up hating each other. I fly back to Ohio on July 29th to get my son that stayed there with his dad and bring both him and my daughter back down here but I cannot stay living where I am due to the issues I am having with my boyfriend. So I really dont know if I am going to be able to come back down here to the job that I have. I dont have enough money to get a place of my own down here, its so expensive. I have looked around Ft Lauderdale or the Daytona area and the rent is a little cheaper there but I still dont have the money to move again. I am not sure what I am going to do. I do not want to stay in Ohio. I cannot go through another winter there. I have had 2 neck surgeries that ended with 2 metal plates and 8 screws in my neck. I also just recently in March '09 had surgery on my lower back, thankfully no other hardware was put into my body.
I am just so confused on what to do that its all I think about anymore. I feel like I have failed but in reality the move to Florida didnt fail it was the relationship that failed and that happens everyday.
I had one offer from an acquaintance that said he would pay for me to move and stay in Florida with one catch that he move in with me because he wants to be with me. I said thanks but no thanks. Thats like jumping from the skillet straight into the fire. Why would I move in with someone that I dont know that well when it didnt work with the person I thought I knew.
I am going to post another blog on the things that my bf did in 3 weeks that made me realize that I couldnt live with him and that I never want to live with anyone EVER again.

a lazy sunday

What a day. Spent most of it at the beach. Going to Ft Lauderdale tomorrow, that should be fun. My daughter has never been there so it should be a good experience for her. I dont know how she is adjusting to living in the Florida Keys. She doesnt have any friends yet since there is no school and everyone is out doing summer things not too many kids are around. I cant wait to go back to Ohio though to get my son that wanted to stay there with his dad. I miss him so much it makes me cry almost everyday. I love Florida but I really miss Ohio right now. Just writing this I am about to cry but I will get past it.

Fun in the Sun

The Florida Keys is where you need to be. I have been here for 3 weeks give or take a couple of days and I love it here. I came here for a vacation back at the end of April beginning of May for 8 days and fell in love with it. There is so much to do and little time to do it. There is the Dolphin Research Center, Crane Point, The Turtle Hospital and we are 1 hour from Key West. The drive on 7 mile bridge is one of the prettiest drives. It's right over the ocean. We have actually seen dolphins jumping out of the water while we were driving over the bridge. You get to see the blue ocean water and all the boats that are out on the water.